Rev. Susan Wynn
It is an honor to share Rev. Sue Wynn's testimony on Light in a Dark World. As you may have read in my own testimony, it is in great part through her written testimony (From Death to Life) that my faith was coaxed, encouraged, and strengthened to seek the Lord in my lowest and darkest moment after a revision surgery. PRAISE GOD that JESUS is our healer, our redeemer and our deliverer!
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Physically and spiritually in ruins, a new ager rebelling against God and stricken with progressive MS, I had nowhere to turn but back to the Lord. My plans and dreams, my promising managerial career, evaporated like a morning mist.
Then I saw the light of Christ, revealed through one who is used by the Lord to restore ruins, Pastor Doc. But first I had to see that I was in ruins.
Physically, it was obvious. Both feet were paralyzed, both legs were paralyzing, my bladder was paralyzed, my muscles so spastic that no muscle relaxant could relax them. My head and right shoulder were in constant, extreme tremor. And I had lost cognitive function. She who made an art form of multitasking could no longer even do simple addition.
But I didn’t see my spiritual ruins at first. The first step was to realize that something was missing in my life, I knew it was God. So I went back to church, after a 22-year absence. As I sang the old hymns, I was stirred up inside, to the point where I became hungry to know the Lord.
Pastor Doc told me that he could not minister to me until I had asked the Lord two questions. The first was, “Am I right with You, Lord?” So, I asked the Lord, and no answer came. I called Pastor Doc the next day and said, “I didn’t get an answer, so I must be right with Him.”
Then Pastor Doc gave me the second question, “Do you have any unforgiveness in your heart?” Immediately, I knew I had never forgiven my first husband, who beat and then abandoned me. So, I prayed to the Lord, “Lord, I want to know You, and this stands in the way. I can’t forgive, but please make it so I can.” I literally felt a weight lift from me, and I knew He had done it!
As I look back, I know the reason He didn’t answer the first question. I was not right with Him because I had not forgiven my first husband.
My sessions with Pastor Doc began, now unimpeded. He assigned me scripture prescriptions, and told me to surround myself with worship music, and pray continually. I obeyed. At the end of third session, he asked me to pray for healing. He had prayed at the end of the first two sessions. I knew all the medical jargon, and asked the Lord to repair the ruins in my brain, spinal cord, and optic nerves.
Less than two weeks later, in the middle of the night of September 1, 2001, I was healed by Jesus Christ. After I went to bed that night, every doubt came streaming into my mind — Who do you think you are? MS is incurable. Your tremors are irreversible. You are fooling yourself! I cried until I was all cried out.
Suddenly, as I laid there in bed, I remembered Peter walking on the water toward Jesus. When he looked at the wind and the waves, he began to sink, and cried out, Jesus! Save me!
At that moment, I heard the Lord speak this to my heart — “You are sinking in a sea of doubt.” I reached up in the night, and said, “Jesus! Help me!” He did!
I arose, grabbed my forearm crutches, and went to the living room couch. As soon as I was situated, I opened my Bible, and started reading what had become my beloved scriptures. Suddenly, I felt a sensation, starting at the top of my head and perfusing through my whole body. I knew it was the Lord, and cried, “Jesus, You are healing me!” I rejoiced and prayed for a while, then went back to bed.
The next day, I woke up feeling like I’d been plugged into a supercharger all night! MS causes great fatigue, but I was full of energy and power!
I arose, and found I could walk without my forearm crutches. Every symptom had suddenly disappeared! I cried, “Lord, you did it!” I am amazed my dear husband, Jeff, didn’t hear me. The words to the third stanza of Wesley’s hymn, “And Can It Be,” came to mind:
“Long my imprisoned spirit lay, fast bound in sin and nature’s night; Thine eye diffused a quick’ning ray, I woke, the dungeon flamed with light! My chains fell off, my heart was free, I rose, went forth, and followed Thee!”
And He has done it! My dungeon flamed with light! My chains fell off, my body and heart were free! I rose, went forth, and followed Him!
He came to set captives free, and He surely set me free!
I pray that my testimony encourages you to seek Him for no other reason than to know Him. You will find that He is much more than you could ever think — Savior, Healer, Sanctifier, oh, my! Just as with me, He longs for you to know Him for all that He is!